Mark thought Lena had left the catâs food out, but not long enough for it to reek. This was a more subtle smell, a butcherâs shop smell of blood soaking into sawdust, cold and sweet, with something ominous at its edge, something that spoke of that journey from field to slaughterhouse, to butcherâs slab. Lena liked to give the cat food that didnât come from tins, it was fond of liver, but there was no liver and no cat, not at first. Then Mark saw Danni, cowering under the settee, her black fur undulating as she breathed in rapidly, nostrils narrowed, eyes on fire, angry and fearful in equal measure. Though Mark had never much liked cats he clucked his tongue at her, but she retreated further under the recess, making a half-hearted hiss, that was more plea than threat.
Mark called for Lena but she didnât answer. Sheâd be upstairs, sleeping the afternoon away, as she often did after the Amsterdam trip. He poured himself some of the orange juice sheâd left out on the kitchen table. It was too warm, the day was too warm and his last job had been too warm. It was time to chill out a little, spend some money.
The smell wasnât going away. Mark looked at the cat accusingly. The creature was desperate to get out and got up enough nerve to shoot past him, hurling herself through the flap in the door with a clatter and a strangled cry. Heâd never seen it move so fast but the smell did not go with her and the catâs bowl was empty. Mark left his juice, thought of something stronger then thought better of it and went upstairs. Heâd shower, and join Lena. Maybe he wouldnât even wake her until later. Maybe he wouldnât shower.
The smell was getting stronger. Not so sweet now. Maybe it was the weather. Theyâd sweltered for the last week, hitting thirty some days. He looked in on Lena, as heâd done so many times before. She was often asleep when he came home. They led frenetic lifestyles that collided occasionally, fought occasionally and loved occasionally, but it suited them.
The blinds were drawn and Markâs eyes took a moment to get used to the gloom. Lena was slumped on the bed, on her back in her usual position. She hadnât even bothered to undress. Mark would have turned and gone to the shower room if it wasnât for the smell. It was coming from here. It was coming from her. He switched on the light, stepped towards Lena, then stepped back quickly, almost falling. Mark stared for a few seconds, but didnât want to believe his eyes. He turned away, opened the blinds, then the window, and leant on the sill for a few moments, blinking and breathing like the cat, filling his lungs with air in an effort to calm himself. Kids were chasing a kite in the park opposite, a few people walked dogs. An ice cream van was approaching, and the kids forgot about the kite when they heard its chimes, leaving it to lose shape and fall silently to the ground. The van was playing a snippet of Italian opera. It felt like an age before Mark could turn back to the bed.
There was not that much blood, not as much as you might expect, and what was there had congealed into a dull red paste. Lenaâs eyes stared past him, as blue as the sky, and fixed on eternity. Her stomach had been ripped open, and other organs were visible. They glistened slightly. All the cheap horror films Mark had seen as a kid reared up before him. Heâd watched videos with singular dedication, smoking and drinking away the wasteland of his youth. They had been substitutes for school, seen so many times that gore meant nothing, just paint on the screen. It meant something now.